It was the scariest day of my life.
Never being that nervous.
So scary, I mind is giving me daymares[ opposite of nightmare ].
The night before, I slept early.
The earliest hour I'm sleeping since holiday started.
I slept at 11.00p.m.
The mosquitoes seemed more annoying than normal.
Bugging me, buzzing by my ears.
Disturbing my abnormal slumber.
I wanted to sleep, but they won't let me!
The buzzing continued until 4a.m.
I manage to close my eye, but can't get my mind to rest.
Those buzzing mosquitoes is keeping my mind awake.
As if telling me I'm gonna fail all my subjects!
I was waken by mosquitoes again around 6a.m.
After that, I couldn't sleep anymore.
I'm too nervous to sleep.
I crept up from my head.
Scratched my head for somewhile.
Then tried to kill those annoying mosquitoes by slapping blindly.
But my attempt is totally useless.
I sat at my computer chair and started hogging my computer.
Until 8a.m. only I realised its sunrise and started getting ready.
Quite an amount of peoples are online by then.
Wishing each other good luck.
And yet most of them got their luck, except me.
Got all ready by 9a.m.
Sat my friend's car to school.
And when we reach there, it is still early.
We waited beside our school mini pond.
10.30a.m.
I went into our school hall anxiously.
Awaiting death to reach my hand.
It was my turn, teacher spun around and told me my result was suspended.
What the heck?
Suspended?
Its my student profile, the yellow file.
I didn't complete it during school days.
Now I have to complete it to get my result.
What to do?
I lack a photo, my dad salary slip and a telephone bill.
A photo?
Where the hell do I get a passport size photo at?
Snap one using my handphone and print it out?
Luckily I remembered I remained the ugliest photo ever taken and left it at home.
Can't believe ugly me saved my own ass!
Ok, salary slip.
What the hell?
How do I get one?
My dad is outstation and not expected to be back till late night.
Teacher gave me a substitute one but needed dads signature.
Darn it, I couldn't wait to lay my hands on those bloody results!
I immitated my dads signature to pass that.
But for the dumb telephone bill I had to rush back home.
I ran and ran like a mad man to home.
Telephone bill hunting.
Hunted and found some that cannot be used.
Ah! I know!
The cursed telephone bill that made me owe my brother a few hundred bucks!
I overused that month, ouch!
I took the bill to school and when I reach the school gate.
Oh for god sake!
I left the whole student profile at home!
For cryin out loud!
I had to run like a hooligan again!
Sweats rolling down my T-shirt like waterfall.
I had both things at hand. Confirmed!
Ran to school again!
I'm getting sunburnt!
Finally, the teacher checked my student profile.
Luckily my dads fake signature passed!
Sorry teacher! I wasn't gonna trick you if my dad's at home! Really sorry!
But still I still had minor mistakes in that profile that needs to me corrected!
Oh my my! Not running home again! That oughta kill me!
Luckily the teacher had pity on me for running home twice and let me pass.
Thank you teacher! Owe you lots!
I took my damn results paper from Mr. Wong. Our student advisor.
It was kinda scary, I heard he was mean to every problem student. And I'm one!
Well, he didn't say much, called me to sign my name on the form and let me take my result.
Lucky me, phew...
Like playing poker, I covered my result slip with the oral result paper.
When I walk out of the office, one by one I peeked at my results.
Oh my goodness!
Results:
Bahasa Melayu B
Bahasa Inggeris A
Mathematics A
Science A
Sejarah B
Geografi B
KH B
Bahasa Cina B
I nearly burst to tears looking at my results.
Tears of joy? Hell no!
Since I'm still in the public I did not do so.
I took my paper and ran back home as if my house is on fire!
At home, I sat on the sofa quietly.
Thought for awhile about the result I got.
Still sad about it, but lost the mood crying, too tired I guess.
I got online, peoples were asking me for my result like cannonballs!
Pain stabbed through my heart.
My results were the worst among my friends.
My heart collapsed, dead.
I short messaged to some of my friends getting their result as well.
Some got really good results!
Yet some of them comforted me. Thanks!
Throughout the day wasn't hard to go.
But some miracles did happen.
My dad, that used to care nothing about me.
Did not know when I was sick.
Ask me to do this do that.
Called me and asked for my results!
Wow! Its really surprizing! It never happened!
Thanks dad! It was always what I wanted.
And my mom, which I expect being murdered by later.
Comforted me and encourages me!
She always wanted me to do the best.
Yet I got her the worst this time and dissapointed her.
She did not even get a little mad, yet comforted me.
I know she is dissapointed, but she did not say a word.
Sorry mom, thanks for your encouragement! I love you!
My brother, which teased me all along.
From before till after the test.
That seemingly discouraging me but actually isn't.
He said nothing mean to me neither!
Yet he said I did my best!
Got me a surprize present if I manage to reach Times Square on Friday.
Thanks!
My sister, that encourages me all along.
Said nothing to me till now.
I don't know if she's mad at me or so.
But I know she still cares for me.
She really do!
It had been the worst day of my life, but yet the best!
The last miracle is that I ran about 13km for my result paper!
I couldn't even do that in a marathon!
And to my friends getting good results, congratulations!
Thanks for comforting me!
The greatest thanks and love goes to my beloved sister, Rouxin!
For encouraging me along the way.
From before the test until now.
She is always worried yet cared about me.
Thanks! Love you!
And to my Jie, Poh Li as well.
Early in the morning before when I started my phone.
She short messaged me asking for my condition.
And then calming my nerve down.
Which saves me from jumping of the building before taking the results.
Gives me the courage to take the result paper.
Thanks! Love you too!
My few other sisters.
Wan Thung, Angel and Alice helped calming me down as well.
Well, except Wan Thung which helped using another way.
Her condition was worse than me, at least she think she is.
She had her hair cut short and she think it looks horrible.
Which turns the other way round makes me need to comfort her abit.
Which helped calm myself down abit.
Thanks my sisters! You girls are the best!
And then my other Jie, Sim Wey.
She is also a candidate of the test.
Her results were better than me, but she never toot her own horn.
Yet she say she thanked me for helping her in some way getting her results.
Which are better than she expected.
And helped pull my spirit up.
Love you!
Other credits goes to all my friends,
Xue Er, Cassandra, Bowie, Ruishen, Andrea, Pui Man, Lei Ting, Wan Wei and Yean Chu.
Jin Ming, Daniel, Hua Xiang, Burnet, Kean Way, Chin Yung and Kenny.
Sometimes, result may not be as bad as it seems.
It may take something bad to make miracles happen.
Always remember you're always not the best, and not the worst.
There will always be people supporting you, no matter how far they are.
Never have regrets towards what you have already made, live with it!
Happy for not what he've done, but what what he've done brought to him,
Wayne
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