I lost my glasses.
My world blurred.
I cannot see clearly.
I am afraid.
Out I go, looking into a blurred world.
I cannot see anything further than 30cm.
I am very afraid.
I fear loneliness.
Yet loneliness came to me.
After you left.
For a reason told.
I dislike him.
Being in sight radius is an eyesore.
I bear loneliness and walked my way.
I am sad.
I need not the reason to be loved.
Home.
The place I find safe.
Randoms,
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
10:04 PM
10:04 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Just being me again.
Same old routine daily.
Online, flirt, get bored, sleep.
Thing is.
What is with me against chicks?
Are they really that fun to flirt with?
Answer is no.
Theoretically, they are just great friends of mine.
They're willing to chat and be crazy talking nonsense all day long.
Some are busy so they are spared much and I still like them.
Busy chicks are not being hated for ignoring me.
But some just pisses me off.
Whats with me and flirting?
Good question.
I flirt, therefore I make friends with chicks quicker than formal conversation.
I flirt, therefore I socialize.
I flirt, no feelings of love used.
Therefore, I have the courage to flirt.
Sleepy.
Randoms,
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
12:35 AM
12:35 AM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Understand the consequences.
Expect every possibility.
Must not let anyone hurt me.
Freezing cold blood.
Cruelty all out.
FUCK YOU.
No more.
Get away.
FUCK OFF.
I'm done.
Dumb EMO's.
Tired.
Sleepy.
Good night.
Randoms,
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
10:53 PM
10:53 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Why, do you still haunt me?
I left you.
I don't need you.
I'm prepared to just be friends.
And why?
You left me no choice.
But hatred.
For you have passed the forbidden line.
The line I forbid anyone to pass.
Why must you?
Keep sticking to me.
We are totally over.
I've chosen to dispose my last bit of feelings.
I've chosen to regain my longed freedom.
Yet.
You.
With useless acts.
Forced me to hate you.
It may be your way.
But.
Involved to me.
What for?
Talking to my close friends.
Words.
"Take care of him for me."
or
"Thanks for taking care of him"
Rubbish.
You irritate me.
Only the act of stupidity.
Need not to be cared for.
Nor pity given.
What you did.
I need not for understand.
For in my eye.
You are nothing but a pest.
Always lurking around stalking.
Yet I cannot and will not hit you.
For it shall dirty me.
No need for tears.
No need for you.
Just.
FUCK OFF MY LIFE AND GET ONE YOURSELF.
Randoms,
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
10:48 PM
10:48 PM
Friday, April 9, 2010
Finally, I ended my misery.
But started my own pain.
The reason is, her.
[F]eelings.
[F]uture.
They both start with F.
But they never work together.
I have to end this.
What is love?
My point of view.
Love is ignoring past.
Love is caring present.
Love is ensuring future.
I can do the front two.
But I see no future between us.
Clear as crystal, we all know I'm realistic.
And my mind surely disallows my soul wasting time.
The heart cries, the mind do.
The ten days of silence.
The last day of exam, will be the day.
I have to do it, it is that day or never.
Intention not to hurt, nor avoid.
But I did both.
Hurt the deepest.
Avoiding everything.
She is anti-social.
I am STUPID.
Too rash.
The days used to get her isn't enough to understand.
When I realized her anti-social.
Too late.
I tried changing her.
But she didn't want to.
Again and again I attempted the change.
Again and again, she either refuse or never even tried.
I am tired.
We cannot live like this.
She's still anti-social.
She's relying on me.
Invisibly, strongly.
I cannot have anyone being so.
I'm a shark.
Shackles kill me.
But she is like SuperGlue.
Elephant glue.
Sticking on everywhere of me.
I have to.
I HAVE TO.
I MUST.
Tear them ALL away.
I now live in peace.
At least.
Of my own mind.
Randoms,
EMO EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
9:47 PM
9:47 PM
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'm telling the truth to myself. I'm no going to leave her.
I'm not going to be alone. I'm going to be happy.
I'll lead a better life. I'll cry for her.
I'll smile always. I'll never touch my knife again.
You are mine as always.
You are there for me.
You change for me.
You sacrifice.
You try for me.
You are mine.
You are still mine.
I'll always have you in my mind.
I'll remember us always.
I'll never let go of you.
I LOVE YOU.
Lies, lies, lies... ALL LIES!!!
I love myself. =)
Randoms,
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
8:50 PM
8:50 PM