By the word BLACK, most people would consider bad.
For me it is the total opposite.
Months it had been.
Truth is clear, nothing much changed.
Feelings, memories, love.
Black is tightly connected to the word EMO.
May I remind you again that EMO is just my net name.
For a not so special reason I chose this name.
Yet for many incidents happening, this name is starting to suit me more and more.
My new start.
Black start.
Camera shop.
This job was much entertaining and rich than what I've once thought it should be.
Learning more than just camera, I learn about life.
By looking at my colleagues.
They are not more older than me, yet the way they react to life, is one to learn.
Not to practice their negative habits like vulgars, but towards the positive habits, like being courtliest to other.
Seems that I'm the most educated person there.
The first science stream employee joining the league.
Yet I see many of my former schoolmates around.
And also my juniors at after school hours.
Brings back memories.
Both sorrow and joyful.
But to realize that I'm already one step ahead of them.
I must know that those memories should not affect me anymore.
For millenniums, love have taken over the world.
Love have taken over humanity.
Love is a piece of lust.
Now as I act, I shall be the first to turn that over.
Understanding clear as crystal, love shall be the only obstacle to my dream.
To overcome that, I must use love as my weapon to get near my dream.
Relationship to be said clearly, is nothing more than a tool to mankind.
A gentleman will never betray his feelings.
I am one.
As I love one I shall choose no other.
Therefore my love towards her shall be related to my goal.
She will not come back, I will not sought for others.
Meaning that my status as single shall stay until the day my dream pursuit end.
Dreadful I know.
Painful I felt.
Tears I shed.
Yet nothing more important now.
Stay strong Wayne.
Humans are still animals, we're born to operate everything.
Just that the skills required are to be improved.
Talk the way you wanted in the future.
Personal bet. Your freedom.
My freedom is my wage, my stake and my identity.
Need not fear. You are never alone.
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
1:01 AM
1:01 AM
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Hereby declare that my blog will use multiple language from now on.
Stepping into MY new era of life, there is need for changes.
Principles will now be honored as GUIDELINES in life.
Principle is just wee bit too hard don't you think?
I ain't a kitty cat. I don't have nine lives to spare myself.
9th day of the new year. Working on my progress in life.
Pace taken now is far too slow if I am to pursue my dreams.
Buckle up creep, its time to go turbo.
Career, not much in progress seriously...
An assistant tutor in a tuition centre.
Guiding primary kids do their homework, applying long lost but found memory and knowledge.
Planning to change my job. Due to the fact that the pay barely meet my requirement.
Education, working on a weird state.
Still doubting between Form 6 or foundation.
Form 6 takes longer time and stronger will but will give a better future if well achieved.
Foundation takes much shorter time but requires cash and might not give me what I originally wanted.
What to do? Doubt, consider, DECIDING.
Social, nothing much to work on.
Much is decided by fate.
Yet, I'm knowing more friends slowly.
Girls, barely working on it.
I have targets yes.
But yet inside still points toward the one which hurt me badly.
Time shall tell me what to do.
Woo Kai Li.
If somehow you're reading this.
I might need to do the pleasure typing the remaining in Chinese.
胡凯莉，
我从没怪你离开了我。
然而我没法祝福你与他。
也许你认为我们之间互不相欠了，但我还是欠你很多。
我不知道当时你的想法是不是如此。
你在SPM前一个月离开了我。
我真的很感激你。
用一个星期时间疗你给于我的伤。
其余的时间好让我转悲伤为奋斗精神专心温习。
三个星期，让我做了有生以来做不出的事。
我心想，如果那时我没拆穿你的背叛，后果会时如何？
很多事我都知道，只是因为害怕你离开而当做看不见罢了。
三个星期，你可知道我们可是每个星期最少见二至四次的。
每次见最少三至五个小时。
这些时间，最后只能留来读书。
我欠你的，除了我还因你的离弃而隐隐作痛的心，还有我的未来。
不知道以后还有没有机会回报罢了。
再次，谢谢。
没有你在身边我已习惯了，不习惯的是连找你的机会都没了。
机会，承诺，希望。
It felt good expressing things out. =)
用嘴说出的承诺，严格说起，也只不过是一句话罢了。
有些人当真了，有些人只认为是一句话罢了。
A promise, to define correctly, is just a sentence spoken.
Some take it seriously. Some take it as a sentence.
Wayne aka EMO,
=)
My world turned black and WHITE @
1:54 PM
1:54 PM