By the word BLACK, most people would consider bad.
For me it is the total opposite.
Months it had been.
Truth is clear, nothing much changed.
Feelings, memories, love.
Black is tightly connected to the word EMO.
May I remind you again that EMO is just my net name.
For a not so special reason I chose this name.
Yet for many incidents happening, this name is starting to suit me more and more.
My new start.
Black start.
Camera shop.
This job was much entertaining and rich than what I've once thought it should be.
Learning more than just camera, I learn about life.
By looking at my colleagues.
They are not more older than me, yet the way they react to life, is one to learn.
Not to practice their negative habits like vulgars, but towards the positive habits, like being courtliest to other.
Seems that I'm the most educated person there.
The first science stream employee joining the league.
Yet I see many of my former schoolmates around.
And also my juniors at after school hours.
Brings back memories.
Both sorrow and joyful.
But to realize that I'm already one step ahead of them.
I must know that those memories should not affect me anymore.
For millenniums, love have taken over the world.
Love have taken over humanity.
Love is a piece of lust.
Now as I act, I shall be the first to turn that over.
Understanding clear as crystal, love shall be the only obstacle to my dream.
To overcome that, I must use love as my weapon to get near my dream.
Relationship to be said clearly, is nothing more than a tool to mankind.
A gentleman will never betray his feelings.
I am one.
As I love one I shall choose no other.
Therefore my love towards her shall be related to my goal.
She will not come back, I will not sought for others.
Meaning that my status as single shall stay until the day my dream pursuit end.
Dreadful I know.
Painful I felt.
Tears I shed.
Yet nothing more important now.
Stay strong Wayne.
Humans are still animals, we're born to operate everything.
Just that the skills required are to be improved.
Talk the way you wanted in the future.
Personal bet. Your freedom.
My freedom is my wage, my stake and my identity.
Need not fear. You are never alone.
EMO
My world turned black and WHITE @
1:01 AM
1:01 AM